Vanessa Mitchell

[Behind The Song]
Dad was quiet about how he felt when he was diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic
cancer.

A steadfast and calm man, he never appeared to worry about anything. A “cool cat”, as they say. Always with a plan… And if he didn’t have one, appeared as though he did.

He was someone you could feel safe around because he logically figured everything out.

It’s an immense comfort to have someone nearby who makes it appear that everything is going to be okay.

Despite pancreatic cancer having a 5-year survival rate of 9%, he never talked about how things would be IF he passed away. There was always a plan to get better.

But sometimes things can’t be figured out.

In an effort to connect with how he might be feeling, I wrote a song from my Dad’s perspective about the pain that I imagine he was going through. Especially as he looked in the mirror seeing himself become skeletal and frail.

Watching his wife, kids and grandchildren see him like that.

The thoughts that must have been racing through his mind…

Conversations I imagine he was having with God when it got really hard near the end.

Maybe you’ll get a better understanding when you listen to the song.

I hope it connects with people who are going through something similar.